All the times I couldn't figure out how I could love what I do so much but hate it even more at the same time.

All the times I’ve watched black hair royalty be treated with less respect than assistants from agents.

All the times I’ve watched black hair royalty be skipped over for corporate opportunities, partnerships, collaborations, etc.

All the times I’ve watched beach wave-portfolios get brand deals, key shows, etc.

All the times I’ve been asked to “assist” someone who booked a four figure gig despite not being competent in black hair.

All the times I’ve seen the very few token Black hair editorials in publications be given to non-Black creatives.

All the times I’ve been paid as an assistant to the makeup artist, but acting as the hair stylist, and had the team treat me as if I wasn’t.

All the times I've been asked to assist artists that with less credentials/weaker credited.

All the years I've assisted with agencies that never once considered me for representation.

All the years I've assisted with agencies that never once offered me non-assistant work.

All the times a peer has said, "I can't believe you haven't blown up yet".

All the times a peer has said, "I can't believe you're still assisting".

All the times a peer has said, "Your work is better than the people you assist".

All the cool white girl photographers who loved to use me to build their book only to fall off the face of the earth once they found success.

All the times it's been obvious the creative team had no idea they'd hired a black hairstylist.

All the times the photographer referred to me as “hair” opposed to my actual name.

All the producers who booked me for dream jobs, only for me to get on set and realize I was only hired because the talent is black.

All the times I’ve been asked on set only because there’s a black model

All the times I’ve been designated to only touch black models backstage during fashion week.

All the times I’ve watched the creative team insist the natural hair model doesn’t need to be touched when I knew was because they had no clue what to do and were too simple to ask.

All the times someone asked me to do baby hairs. 

All the times my coworkers insinuated I was taking things personally when it was obvious that I was being treated differently.

All the times I’ve watched black peers be proud to be a token.

All the times I've watched black peers be proud to be taken advantage of.

All the times I've watched black peers be proud to be disrespected.

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